a better deal

Last night was pretty good. I had determined to keep my anger in check and make it good. While I often contend I don’t have any control over my anger, that’s just a cop-out and an easy way to stay grouchy and avoid doing anything. In truth I’m really not that weak - at least I hope not.

bigR’s attitude wasn’t quite as bad as it has been lately, and I guess mine wasn’t either (coincidence or cause & effect?). I’d spent most of the weekend in an awful mood for no reason at all, and the whole family was more than a little annoyed with me. Yesterday I was feeling pretty good, though. Maybe it was the previous night’s maritals or perhaps the thinly-veiled compliments the urologist gave me earlier in the day that had me in a better mood - doesn’t much matter.

Outside play session ended smoothly as dinner time arrived. (When I came home, bigR’s hair was in a “spike” that would be more appropriately described as a “pig tail”. I love how macho, tough guy, check out my muscles he is while at the same time caring for his daffodils and playing with Barbie. He’s so rad when he’s in a good mood.

Dinner was good, temporary tattoo was excellent, bath time was tolerable. Sleepy Wife laid down with littleR (getting so big!) and bigR and I just kinda chilled out in the living room, coloring some animals in his new coloring book.

Once bed time came around, he went without a fuss. His only complaint was mama and sister asleep in his bed. Lucky him, he gets to sleep with daddy! On a side note, littleR has definitely grown tired of her crib. I think it’s time to disassemble the bunk bed and give her her own big girl bed :]

Ok, fast forward a few hours to this morning.

The alarm sounded promptly at 4 AM, and I awoke to find bigR all sprawled out on his back - on top of me. I’m not sure how he managed it without me waking up, but he was full on using me as his bed. It was so silly and I really really really didn’t want to get up.

I’m hoping I can maintain control of my emotions long enough to have two good days in a row - send me some positive energy! Now!